This day has been so long. It's almost 1 a.m. I accomplished two things today, I started both assignments for Color Theory.... However I have a 600 word essay due Sunday, apparently I am supposed to have read the entire book "Their Eyes were Watching God", and I have only read 2 chapters, actually less than 2. Oh and I have an assignment due for my Interactive Gaming class and I still do not know what it is exactly.
I know I will get it all done, I just have no idea of where to start, I am almost at the point of not caring. I want to be enthusiastic about my work!
Instead I have Michael Bublé's "Lost", Dido's "Grafton Street" and a couple other sad songs on repeat on youtube, I am stuck in my grief, and just feel abandoned at times.
What bothers me most is when a person is not present anymore, I start to wonder if they were ever here. Did I just imagine that life? Maybe it has something to do with what my Ethics teacher mentioned about Philosophy a few years ago, if a person leaves a room and you cannot see them do they exist? I know my dad existed/exists, I am afraid that I am going to forget him or forget his mannerisms and voice. I am so thankful for my photos and bits of video here and there.
Life just is not the same, it's been turned upside down, and I am just trying to keep my head above water.