When I am not writing for this blog.....

Myriad is a Club through SCAD that I participate in, very exciting to see the launch and growth of a club, and I work with awesome people.

Here is a piece about Doctor Who: The Adventure Games that I wrote:

http://scadmyriad.com/2010/08/15/doctor-who-the-adventure-games/

Coffee in a Tea Bag?

My find of the day! My cousin Joni had mentioned Coffee in Tea Bags, but I didn't really think that they made those. Now they call them Coffee Bags, but if you just looked at the bag, you would think Tea.

I love coffee, I have been drinking coffee since I was about 5 years old. I am trying Decaf since Regular coffee seems to make me feel a bit more anxious and if I drink more than 2 cups then I feel pretty jittery.
It actually made a pretty good cup of coffee, still working on how long I need to leave it in.

Roadblocks.... I mean Mindblocks

I am realizing that I have set up a lot of Roadblocks for myself. It's more mental, although the way my room is right now, it's pretty much one big roadblock for me to trip over, hoping I don't break my neck, most likely it will be my toe.
Where was I? Oh right, so I apparently have a fear of change, I know change happens constantly, and sometimes things change for the better like getting married, which has not happened for me yet, actually I am still waiting on the right man to come along, as getting married doesn't really work if you are alone, although there was some strange movie on Lifetime where the woman was going to get married to herself, of course while planning her wedding she meets the right guy..... I am sort of sick of Lifetime movies, same plot, same outcome, my dad would always make fun of those movies if my mom and I were watching one.
Back to my fear of change, I think it stems from a lack of self-confidence. I have a lot of goals and dreams (Don't you dare make a joke about my name). I am attending SCAD for my B.A. in Game Development which should help me achieve my goal of getting into the Gaming Industry, although I can honestly say my confidence in the goal was tested during the last couple of weeks since I felt like I was falling behind and I made the wrong choice, why am I even going to SCAD?! I should have gone into banking! Banking would have probably been a nightmare since I am not a fan of math. I am actually making improvements in my classes now, partly because I actually watched the tutorials (got a gift subscription to Lynda.com, Thanks Katherine!) and worked on my assignments more than usual. At the same time I have to watch that I don't fall into the habit of waiting until the weekend to get my projects done. Part of it is being lazy, and I think the rest goes back to my mental roadblocks, as much as I want to succeed, I am afraid of the change that comes with it. At the same time I feel extreme pressure sometimes from others who I feel think that I do not have any focus and that I should be working, (currently I am doing ad building). While I am sure they are looking out for my best interest, at the same time I feel absolute judgement, like "no you can't do anything right". Which leads me to missing my dad more because he didn't care what others thought, especially if you had a self-righteous attitude. He could be the most caring person, but the minute you did him wrong or thought of yourself higher, your opinion didn't matter to him. I wish I had a bit more of that attitude, I always doubt myself, even with writing a simple message, I can usually find something wrong with it, especially when someone else has taken something out of context.

So my goals for this week are to improve my classwork and take out a few of the roadblocks in my room like the papers, magazines, and clothes.

Small Spaces

Small Space Style Blog

This is a great blog about adding style to small spaces. My house has a lot of rooms but we certainly to not have any "Great Rooms" My room is pretty much like an apartment, it's just missing a kitchen. When I do purchase my own home I really have no desire for a mansion or huge house, all I can think of is how much more cleaning you would have to do.

Some companies specialize in the small house business, and while it seems like it would be okay for a single person or a weekend getaway.

Tumbleweed Houses

I would actually like to add a small type of cottage to the property in Ocala someday (with ADT security since there are a few people who think if a place is empty then that means FREE room and board).
In day-to-day life I could not imagine living in too small of a space, seems very claustrophobic!

Trapped!

Have you ever been trapped in a room. I was trapped in my bathroom for about 15 minutes yesterday. I had taken the doorknobs off because I had planned to paint the door later. Well, I shut the door, didn't really occur to me that the knobs had a purpose. Of course the door shut, no way to open it couldn't press it open. My mom was in the kitchen and couldn't hear me as I was shouting and banging on the door. The only soul who could hear me was my dog Millie and she was trapped in her crate (Now I have an idea of how traumatic it can be to be stuck in a room with no way of getting out, sorry Millie) Anyway, my mom finally came to announce that dinner was ready, still she had to find the doorknobs which ended up not working.
Lightbulb moment! Credit cards, I learned that from years of watching the telly, and I also checked Google (I had my mom pass my laptop too me through the space above the door) One woman apparently used the Sim card from her iPhone to open the door, not sure of where my iPhone was, although I am pretty sure it had a dead battery. Anyway, the credit card did the trick. Really everyone should keep an old credit card in their bathroom I think. Being trapped in the bathroom is not the worst thing in the world, being trapped in a room with no water resources would be worse. Either way, lesson learned!
I was really trying to channel MacGyver too, although the only things I could find were Shower gels, Cleaning supplies, and breakables. I guess I could have cleaned the bathroom.

p.s. Door is still not painted.

Cars, Car Parts, and Argh!

The theme of my week is Cars, no not the movie, that would be nice though. No, I have car parts strewn about my deck and a few in my closet.... waiting to be placed on eBay, I know I should have done this a while ago..... procrastination is my worst habit and add a bit of self-pity and voila! They are still there. This week I did manage to make a step in selling the Iroc-Z, it was my dad's car, it was not his favorite car though, that would be the 39' Coupe, the El Camino, and the Sedan Delivery. It's made it an easier decision to sell, however, it is still easier to let the car sit, and as long as no one shows interest, it will continue to sit there. Mentally I am still comprehending and sorting. It gets to be too much, I start to feel alone in it all, and some days it feels like I have velcro on my feet.

Yesterday, the car battery quit, a frustration and expense, but I have now bought my first car battery, it should last at least 2 years. Our neighbor installed it, but I want to know how to install the battery without causing a short. I am getting an education in car repair costs. Next week my car is scheduled for an oil change and a check-up..... the air conditioner is blowing hot air, which is not a good thing in sunny hot Florida (why do I live in Florida again?). Car repairs were not something I had to worry about before, it was a perk of having a dad who worked in auto body, I am not uneducated about cars though, my dad did not specifically show me how to change a tire, but I learned from observation. I do know how to tape light shades, wet-sand an RV, and I dabbled in painting power trucks when I was 5.

Maybe this weekend I will make up an inventory list, or maybe not....

My meditation for this week:
Psalms 43:3
O send out your light and your truth, let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling.

I love this blog!

http://howaboutorange.blogspot.com/

So much creativity, it makes me want to be more creative! :)